i'm wearing wifey's spects.:D

small version of little red riding hood big bad wolf. lol!

i brought my deim jeans today! =)

sometimes... i really still do missed it.i always asked myself why can't everything just be like the past again.where i will be contented just having someone by my side.at least i find a reason to live.
now,i can't find any reason to live anymore.i'm just an empty shell.
if time could tun back,i won't be so childish anymore,i wouldn't anyhow get moodswings and vent my anger.i would learn how to trust someone.i would learn anything to get it the same again.

i was waiting for bus the other day,and it just suddenly reminds me of how we used to go for 2 movies and gets kinda late and you insist on sending me home.i don't know what to do with myself anymore.the pain since you left me,its unimaginable.i try..my very best to move on really.but these places,you and me and everything.it's just so hard.so tough to.i have to forget.

i realise i have come to a point in my life that is so fuck up.i'm beginning to wonder if my decision was right at all.FUCK IT REALLY!! FUCK IT ALL!!

I haven't slept for two days.
I've bathed in nothing but sweat.
And I've made hallways scenes for things to regret.
My friends they come.
And the lines they go by.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.

I live my life in cocaine.
Just a rage and three kinds of yes.
And I've made stairways.
such scenes for things that I regret
Oh those days in the sun.
They bring a tear to my eye.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.

But you're so young.
You're so young.
You look in my eyes.
you're so young so sweet so suprised.

So the sign says "ok"
Gotta take a ride just recline in the faraway.
Got to take some time to realize
That my friends they come.
and the lines they go by.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.

But you're so young.
You're so young
You look in my eyes.
You look so young.
So sweet. So suprised.
You look so young, like a daisy in my lazy eyes.

Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.
Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry.

oh god.intepol..is like my favourite now.
interpol stole my heart away!!

i'm like so tired...but i'm not sleeping yet.my mind is running through,running through...

Oasis!!

Music is reallly one of the best things on earth,i'm so a music lover.

i find kids can be real adorable sometimes.they live in their own world.today there's this lil boy tapping me and wanting to show me things,as if i never seen before.lol.they can get real cute.haha.kids are really simple,easily happy.=)

i find it so cute when kids say they want pooh bear,mickey mouse or etc.hahahha.

i wish........i can live in the world i want the most sometimes.

''Sometimes all you can do is not think. Not wonder. Not obsess. Not imagine. Just breathe. Breathe in, breathe out. Everything works out in the end, and the more time you spend worrying about it, the longer it takes for things to end perfectly. Just the way they should. ''

wonder why am i still like a lil girl.damn really.when will i really grow up..
i just can't walk out my lil girl shell.why i get so scared easily??why am i so weak in my mind??
Auntie pauline asked me to find a rich guy and marry off better. lol. the problem is,where to find? lol.i wish i'm stronger...

i needa find something to make me smile everyday. . .
something that makes me happy,that keeps me going.

I’m the girl. You’re the boy. You text me first or we don’t talk today.

Girls aren’t going to talk to you first. It’s a girl thing. We don’t like starting the conversation because we like to feel like you want to talk to us. We like to feel like the wait was worth something. We like feeling like you’ve waited for us like we’ve waited for you. But the number one reason we hate talking first is because we hate to seem needy or clingy. That’s why we’re scared. Cause to us, being needy and obsessive just pushes guys away. And no girl wants that.

If someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be in it. So don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay.

i recently found my ambition.. is to be happy.:-)
i hope i can be.i will try my very best to be. everything you do,what matters most,is you're happy.if you are happy with whatever you do,that's enough.what's the point of living if being not happy with what you do? i am always gloomy...it's just really the energy thrown back.

i found something i'm happy to do,i'm re reading east of eden..:)

Jason Castro is amazing.. had a hard time finding who sang this song!

How i wish.i can.

It's way too late to be this locked inside ourselves
The trouble is that you're in love with someone else
It should be me. Oh, it should be me
Your sacred parts, your getaways
You come along on summer days
Tenderly, tastefully

And so may, we make time
Try to find somebody else
This place is mine

You said today, you know exactly how I feel
I have my doubts little girl
I'm in love with something real
It could be me, that's changing

And so may, we make time
To try and find somebody else
Who has a line

Now seasoned with health
Two lovers walk a lakeside mile
Try pleasing with stealth, rodeo
See what stands long ending fast

Oh, how I love you in the evenings
When we are sleeping
We are sleeping. Oh, we are sleeping

And so may, we make time
We try to find somebody else
Who has a line

Now seasoned with health
Two lovers walk a lakeside mile
Try pleasing with stealth, rodeo
See what stands long, oh ending fast

' He' shall no longer be he anymore. ' he' will never stand a important place in me anymore.
'he' will just be a friend.i have moved on for so long,i shall stay the way it is..
i should not have any illusions anymore.because i felt my heart ache when i saw pictures of you and her together.someone,used to be so close to me,someone who used to love me so,someone who's a jerk..isn't here anymore.

i don't wish to be the other party..i don't wish to be someone you have to be thinking of while worryin/angry with yourself because of her.

This is the end.

i feel as though,i can't see my future anymore..
seems so bleak.i'm such a excapist..i really am.
red rabbits...

wonder there's ever a day when he and me will get back again.which seems impossible.
he told me army life makes him feel stupid..because he lost me two years ago because of army.?
i said there's no point,i have let go alr.he sounds as if he doesn't want me to,he sounds as though..he wants me to wait for him.but..he's got his love of his life now..why am i still not getting it?

but well..it's best to just leave it to fate.if it's yours,it'll be yours eventually.no idea why when i'm typing this..just makes me think of those time i used to blog about the times we had together.

The silver beatles,is way before when beatles were out.
cool or what?

finally moved from livejournal back here..
feels good and fresh.i'm pretty sick of blogging...
Blogger is so much better.at least isn't messy.ooh great,this blog gonna stay with me whenever i'm down.so ya..:)